i crush you.
no, dont get me wrong... this is not an understatement of what i feel for you. i am merely acknowledging it... perhaps, i just feel the need to say it outright because i do... and i cant directly tell you.
sa transformers kanina diba di nila masabi sa isa't isa yung "i love u" (cheesy!) because that FOXy lady said that once girls say it, the boys just run away the moment they hear it. to think that they were quite about how the other felt...
and the thing is, i dont want you to run away.
**haay, giatay... hehe:)
peace and love to all!
ciao!
Monday, June 29, 2009
Monday, June 22, 2009
back like balakubak!
haha! i've been quiet for the past weeks noh? i couldnt write the stuff i wantd to because i wanted to keep them all to myself. plus i have found some peace of mind recently (but now, i'm confused again!). and galing ako byahe eh... grabeh! i couldnt smoke coz a pack of marls cost around 35hkd. i couldnt drink. i did not have my friends with me. my crush was away. and the mental torture of not knowing what to do: to enrol or not... it was one of the most stressful vacations ever! haha! thank God for retail therapy...
anyway, my dad decided to let me go to back to lawschool... it feels funny now. hehe:) ewan, weird. you know some stuff yet, u still feel ignorant... :) and the classmates are... well, parang detached ang tingin mo sa kanila... like ur not part of the class... kawawa din minsan. hehe:) kay mangurog sa recit! haha! karelate kaayo ko kay kurog pud ko eh! haha!
i wish the summer did not end. i had fun last summer. "indulge" would be a good word for the summer of 09. i had so much booze. so much fun. so much of friends. so much of him... but too much of a good thing cannot be good for you, right? plus, the song that tells us : "all good things come to an end."
now, i have so much to do... haha! so many readings... so many worries. and less of him. the problem is that he does not really tell me if he still wants me to hang around... madali lang naman akong kausap eh...
but that's the thing with non serious fraca or things that dont have labels... you dont have vested rights! haha! naisip ko to a couple of days ago, and i wanted to put it on FB:
"that's what "IT" is... a thing... just a thing... so dont beat urself up for losing it... for losing something thas supposedly so generic, so unspecial, that id doesn't even have a name."
its too bad you faid for "it" with ur heart. char! hahaha! wala na mo kasabot sa ako noh? ako pud! haha! later mga bits!
peace and love!
ciao!
anyway, my dad decided to let me go to back to lawschool... it feels funny now. hehe:) ewan, weird. you know some stuff yet, u still feel ignorant... :) and the classmates are... well, parang detached ang tingin mo sa kanila... like ur not part of the class... kawawa din minsan. hehe:) kay mangurog sa recit! haha! karelate kaayo ko kay kurog pud ko eh! haha!
i wish the summer did not end. i had fun last summer. "indulge" would be a good word for the summer of 09. i had so much booze. so much fun. so much of friends. so much of him... but too much of a good thing cannot be good for you, right? plus, the song that tells us : "all good things come to an end."
now, i have so much to do... haha! so many readings... so many worries. and less of him. the problem is that he does not really tell me if he still wants me to hang around... madali lang naman akong kausap eh...
but that's the thing with non serious fraca or things that dont have labels... you dont have vested rights! haha! naisip ko to a couple of days ago, and i wanted to put it on FB:
"that's what "IT" is... a thing... just a thing... so dont beat urself up for losing it... for losing something thas supposedly so generic, so unspecial, that id doesn't even have a name."
its too bad you faid for "it" with ur heart. char! hahaha! wala na mo kasabot sa ako noh? ako pud! haha! later mga bits!
peace and love!
ciao!
Monday, June 8, 2009
narci mode---
--- from urbandictionary.com
you just type the word/name or whatever that comes to mind in the search space thing...
basta du eet!
TANYA---
love and peace!
ciao!
you just type the word/name or whatever that comes to mind in the search space thing...
basta du eet!
TANYA---
- The most amazing person in the universe.
- a quiet pretty girl with and IQ of a 170 who seems shy and gulliable but if messed with can totally kick your ass so bad you're gonna wish you never had one.
- a one of a kind girl. always found having a great time. she is her own person. very passionate. great kisser. better friend. just an all around awesome human being.
- A girl with an incredibly voracious appetite, yet she somehow maintains a nice figure
- Someone with very sexy hair and cute cheeks.who can make friends easily
- shes a freak, a total tomboy with a kickass personality. brown hair brown eyes with a deep mysterious soul. can out do all the boys and has tons of friends. she doesnt say much but what is said can knock you off your feet. great sense of hunor and usually cant be takin seriously. she is a lost traveler with great ambitions to succeed in what ever she does. she makes a great friend but it is very hard getting close to her.
love and peace!
ciao!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
anong latest?
my dad wont let me enroll into law school as a freshman again. he says that if my appeal is denied and i have to waive the year, then he will no longer support it. so my alternative is to work and earn my own money... and if and when i have money, i'll go back to school again.
this news is pretty heart-breaking for me... coz i have already decided that i want this. that i cannot give this up. that i at least have to know if i can actually pass the bar or not. and all that i did not want to deal with (like backstabbers, loneliness, academic pressure) bother me a lot less now, because i have learned to deal with them. i can just feel that i can do better this time because i know what to do or how to work my way around things.
so if i work, my question would be: where? dvo or mla? i dont think i want to leave davao for a long period of time... ayoko na ulit mafeel yung napag-iwanan ka ng all that you valued... and you start all over again- make new friends, reconnect with old friends, have new hangouts, establish new teritories, and at the same time, deal with separation anxiety with the place you left behind... i dont like that... but then, the mere shift from school to work already promises separation anxiety and all that i've mentioned above...
haay... this is heavy. i'll have to pray really really hard that my appeal will be granted so i dont have to leave somthing that i have come to love...
peace and love to all!
ciao!
god bless!
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PS. this would have been far more depressing... but thanks to certain welcomed distractions, ayos lang ako. hehe:)
this news is pretty heart-breaking for me... coz i have already decided that i want this. that i cannot give this up. that i at least have to know if i can actually pass the bar or not. and all that i did not want to deal with (like backstabbers, loneliness, academic pressure) bother me a lot less now, because i have learned to deal with them. i can just feel that i can do better this time because i know what to do or how to work my way around things.
so if i work, my question would be: where? dvo or mla? i dont think i want to leave davao for a long period of time... ayoko na ulit mafeel yung napag-iwanan ka ng all that you valued... and you start all over again- make new friends, reconnect with old friends, have new hangouts, establish new teritories, and at the same time, deal with separation anxiety with the place you left behind... i dont like that... but then, the mere shift from school to work already promises separation anxiety and all that i've mentioned above...
haay... this is heavy. i'll have to pray really really hard that my appeal will be granted so i dont have to leave somthing that i have come to love...
peace and love to all!
ciao!
god bless!
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PS. this would have been far more depressing... but thanks to certain welcomed distractions, ayos lang ako. hehe:)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
kagubot sa world
1. i lost my frigin camera. and malapit na ang biyahe ko to mla n hkg. my mum is gonna skin me alive. fer sure.
2. i have not enrolled yet. kapoy. and i am not entirely sure that this is what i want to do. i dont want to deal with failure again. the chances of me failing is high. on the other hand, i wanna make money. the chances of having the business in full swing in a couple of months also fills me with anxiety. parang ganito din si mike at the moment. we are both wishing that there was a "guide to life" or something like a manual on what to do when it comes to life alterring decisions.
3. and i hate that my friend seems to have changed. i feel like he has gotten a bit cold. or maybe nagchange-gears lang siya. i dunno. but i hate that my mind is so not quiet when he is not around. pero all is well when he is next to me. and i admit that i am not ready to lose him, or his hugs, or kisses and all that jazz...
2. i have not enrolled yet. kapoy. and i am not entirely sure that this is what i want to do. i dont want to deal with failure again. the chances of me failing is high. on the other hand, i wanna make money. the chances of having the business in full swing in a couple of months also fills me with anxiety. parang ganito din si mike at the moment. we are both wishing that there was a "guide to life" or something like a manual on what to do when it comes to life alterring decisions.
3. and i hate that my friend seems to have changed. i feel like he has gotten a bit cold. or maybe nagchange-gears lang siya. i dunno. but i hate that my mind is so not quiet when he is not around. pero all is well when he is next to me. and i admit that i am not ready to lose him, or his hugs, or kisses and all that jazz...
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