new baby steps...

this is what i have been working on...



my best friend and i have always wanted to do something together... given the difference in our personalities, we still came up with this as a hobby, business, creative output.

1 AM Fashion Factory is still starting, so i as for your support and understandin.. i do appreciate criticisms... brutal honesty is a must. :)

check out our facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/profile.php?id=100000671332289&ref=ts

the past and the future...

shots of my two-year old mangkin at my lola's first death anniversary...

quick & easy oatmeal cookie

ingredients:

3 eggs
1 cup shortening
1 cup flour
1/2 ts salt
1 cup raisins
2 ts baking powder
3 1/2 cups oatmeal
1 cup sugar

preheat oven to 350F.

pour boling water over raisins (just enough to cover the raisins). let sit.

combine all other ingredients together, then stir in raisin mixture.

drop by teaspoonful onto greased cookie sheet. bake in hot oven for 12-15 mins.


the picture above is what it looks like before baking. the picture below was taken after it was baked. :)


the recipe makes about 60 2-inch cookies.
i like this cookie because they are soft, not too sweet and they are so easy to make.
try it!

god bless you!
ciao!

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i like baking! :)
im back to doin the things i used
to love doing.. :)

i see dead people.

i hate fear... yet its on my back like a dark hairy mole. i'm marked with fear.

no, i dont have the fear of spiders or the dark or stuff like that... i used to be scared of the deep water, but not to the point of fainting... i used to be scared of heights, but after i tried wall climbing, i found myself able to manage it well. anyway, that kind of fear is not the kind i am referring to... although, as i write this sentence, i realize that it should hint to the things i am (deeply) scared of...

on my 21st bday, my parents gave me a car but i never drove it. it was just parked on the driveway for 6 months before my parents finally decided to sell it. i did not want to drive for the fear of injuring someone... or getting into legal trouble.

i am 24 years old but i am still scared to fall in love. (okay, super cheeeezy line. sorry.) i am scared of how it will not turn out the way fairy tales predict... and instead become a collection of melancholy poems. i fear the pain, the unknown and the unknown amount of pain i have to live through if i allow myself to love.



well, since i am just rising from the ashes of my recent burn-out, i find myself far more scared now... i fear that to let him go means goodbye for good and we wont find our way back to each other. on the other hand, i fear that to hold on means being stuck and i dont want to be here till death. it seems that my fear of the unknown and of getting hurt again and being cursed to a miserable life has been intensified...

right now, i am just lost. but soon i know i'll find the courage. i know it's there somewhere... that bit of courage brought me here, so i just need to find it within myself again huh? :)

god bless!
ciao!

baby steps to old self :)

i was practising with the camera my broody left me.. :)
its been years since i took pictures. i need practice... much practice. i dont know how to focus. and i feel like my composition is off now and i need to pay attention to the artistic value of my pix... hmm... i need to relearn everything... but the three pix should tell you im back to a couple of my old hobbies: photography and plants... :)

lalalalalav month!

boo! i hate this time of the year.. everyone is sooo lovey-dovey... (haha! and yes, i realize that i was sounding a bit bitter while i was adding more o's to "so" hehe:) im glad the year of the tiger is on feb 14 so it kinda takes attention away from the day intended to celebrate love. boo! a day to celebrate hope, hunger or poverty should be set aside too... for all those things are also important. boo!

i especially hate this day, this year. i still have my battle scars and i am still a bit bruised from all the fighting i had to do in the battle field that is love. boo! i am perfectly fine, actually. i would just really hate to know that they (bigboy and gumby) went out and had a good time. of course they would, coz that's what couples are expected to do. and coz motels slash their prices this time of the year and we all know who is a bit of a perv... i know im not supposed to care anymore but... i dont know... so BOO!!!

if u hate is, suck it. (--weh? ill party. anyone wanna join me?)
ciao!