Friday, December 4, 2009

"to die by your side is such a heavenly way to die"

konger told me to see this. i anticipated the love stuff and the artsy fartsy appeal of the movie, so i watched it with martino, not really knowing that it was not a love story but a story of boy meets girl...

and i liked it... and no, not because the story sums up (with incredible precision) what happened between me and "my summer." although that personal experience contributed a lot with regard to my understanding or absorption of the story and what it was trying to say.

anyway, these are the reasons why i like it:

1. the shots were mostly close-up or zoomed in to something or someone. these shots are often used to draw attention to or emphasize someone or something. in the movie, it was used to give the audience a feel of what it is like to be in love.. u know? to pay attention to all the beautiful details, to just focus on that one person or event or thing and to not see the bigger picture. the close up shots got a bit annoying coz i could not see the scenery, but i appreciated the fact that it reminded us of how people in love see the world.

2. the story was not narrated chronologically. it went back and forth, relived some days and ignored some. i like that because that is how the mind works. the mind is not exactly always coherent, especially when it is rationalizing and trying to figure out a lot of things at the same time. instead, it pulls random memories and thoughts and it goes back and forth, while trying to make sense of things. it was rather helpful in conveying the characters pain and frame of mind.

3. i liked how love or experiences or a chapter in life was compared to buildings in architecture. it was said that in order to appreciate a building, you need to visualize or see it along with the other buildings around it.. in the same manner that an experience in life should not be taken as one unit or thing. it should be seen as a part of the grand plan or of life in its entirety.

4. i liked the black and white movie they saw! :) every scene had meaning or relation to what was happening with the characters tom and summer.. (actually, every scene in the movie 500dof had significance.. meaning, not much of the viewer's time was wasted.)

here are a few lines or parts that i liked:

*sadness is underrated.

*Summer: “One day I woke up and I just knew.”
Tom: “Knew what?”
Summer: What I was never sure of when I was with you XXX I knew I could promise him I’d feel the same way every morning. In a way that I.. I never could with you…
I knew I could promise him I’d feel the same way every morning. In a way that I.. I never could with you… ---ouch!

*and the part when they were at the door and Tom said that he did not care about the labels. he just wanted consistency; to wake up everyday blah-blah... the summer said "i cant give you that. no one can." like! hehe:)

there are a lot of things i forgot to mention in this post.. but these are probably the ones that i wanted to point out.

and i cant quite figure out why summer always had something blue on her... be it a blue ribbon, blue hair clip or her dress was blue or had blue prints... i did not get that... maybe it was a warning sign?? i dunno. i have theories, but none of it i can explain well.. any ideas?

ciao! :)

ps.
"If Tom had learned anything… It’s that you can’t ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence. That’s all anything ever is. Nothing more than coincidence.
It took a long time, but Tom had finally learned. There are no miracles. There is no such thing as fate. Nothing is meant to be. He knew. He was pretty sure."

cebooo!

i had fun in cebu. it was my first time to set foot on the queen city of the south. i went there with my bestpal since high school. i booked the tickets weeks ago. i was determined to have fun and give myself a break from all the negativity i had going on here... and i got what i wanted in cebu. :)

me @ the basilica minore del santo nino

i found out that--
--there are a loot of good looking and hot guys in cebu. the girls are pretty pero kasagaran sapyot. haha!
--the price range for food and drinks? well, it ranges from dvo price to mla price. it depends on what you want to experience; kung high end, meron and kung cheap-ass back packer lang, meron din.
--the streets are narrow and the sidewalks are narrow. and the streets are so inter-laced that it feels like there is no such thing as a long street that goes straight. streets are basically cramped and crooked.
--and dont be surprised if the prettiest faces have the most bisaya tongues... as in bottle = "batol", sparkle = "sparkol"
--the party does not die in cebu.. not even on sundays. but be careful of prostitutes and the like.. there are a lot of them.
--there is a pretty good balance between what is old and historical, and what is new, modern and industrial.

cebu is good for short breaks or cheap but crazy get-aways.. but i think i'll find it hard to live there coz i see myself getting bored or running out of things to do. i mean, the city will lose its luster once i master the streets so it will seem a lot less exciting after living there for a month or so. i'll probably have a routine by then, and i probably tried everything the place has to offer by then... so, manila still has it, for me.

xoxo

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bdw, thanks to the people who made this trip sooooper fun!

perr, oskie n mumuy @ penthouse

just a thought..

i just thought that maybe loving is not for me. people move from one person to the next ant they are perfectly fine. the one time i decide to let my guard down, and i end up a wreck.

its really not for me. i like it, but its like a drug for me. i just realized that i'm the giver in a relationship and i can hardly stand knowing that a person is mad at me. those traits put together result in a martyr.. u know the kind that cant stop hitting her head with a hammer? :)

and i really dont know how to stop.. i think and rethink, analyze, rationalize and over-think! its exhausting. its too much but i cant stop. i wallow in feeling because i think that's what living is all about. you know?

its when you feel something, anything, that you feel alive. weird huh?? i dunno. maybe i gotta think about this some more..

oh well..

God bless!
Ciao!

ps. i really dont want to crash and burn again. i just like the tingling and the floating feeling when u love someone. :)

Friday, November 27, 2009

b!tch brushed-off

i never thought i could be so wrong about someone.. but then again, hormones make u see things thru rose tinted glasses... so we are all susceptible to being unreliable about people from time to time.. pero geez! please lang, spare me.. u have either reduced me to something so much less than a decent human being or u hate me so much that ur not taking my calls??

no, dear reader, i did not call the guy 58million times. and i have a clear purpose for doing so. its like this:

monday: i got back from cebu n i told him (thru tx) that i got him something that does not have a very long shelf life and that it would expire soon. he said he'll text me kinabukasan.
tuesday: nothing.
wednesday: nagtx siya asking if nagexpire na yung thing. i said ndi pa. he asked me naunsa ko, n i told him i was sick. blah-blah n then i told him id tell him if i felt better i could leave the house na and maybe meet him to hand him the thing.
thursday: i called him, he picked up. he could not get it coz he was in a land far far away. (on this day also, my mom tells me to invite him to a family thng on sunday. kaperfect noh?)
friday: i was better so i ran a few errands and i called him but no answer. and i did not get a follow up txt from him.
saturday: the phone was ringin, then suddenly call failed. wtf?

i dont get it. y does he not take my call? or tx bak? i thought we were "friends" (even if its in the most awkward sense)??? does he think that getting him pasalubong is part of my grand plan to get him back??? geez. *eyes rolling* if that's the case, he needs to get over himself. like, ASAP. puhleeze! (yeah, for a second there, i wanted him back, but now i feel like the rose-tinted glasses dont fit me; my lifestyle, my choices, my personality and the way i'm wired. so now, its ciao foolish boy! if there is one lesson i should learn its that the lovey-dovey-puppy thang isnt for me. naka-move-on na ko, so should u!)

this behavior is seriously disappointing.. like, MAJOR disappointment! i thought he was one of those people who could be mature about the whole thing and transcend, u know?? well, apparently not. n this behavior cannot be rooted on bitter feelings because i dont think he really cared about me that mucho. so i'm just going to take this as a pure and simple brush off. very bad...

well, if that's how he wants to play it, then m thru playing nice.

xoxo

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

thinking positive :)

DEFYING GRAVITY

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by
The rules of someone else's game
Too late for second guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes and leap

It's time to try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you can't bring me down
Mmm-mmm

I'm through accepting limits
Cos someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But til I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well if that's love it comes at
Much too high a cost

I'd sooner buy defying gravity
I'm way up high, I'm defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you won't bring me down

Unlimited
My future is unlimited
And I just had a vision
Almost like a prophecy
I know
It sounds truly crazy
And, true, the vision's hazy
But I can see it
I can feel it
I swear I'll be so high
yeah yeah

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky
As someone told me lately
Everyone deserves a chance to fly
And if I'm flying solo
At least I'm flying free
To those who ground me
Take a message back from me
ah yeah

It's time to try defying gravity
I'm way up high, I'm defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, I'm defying gravity
And you won't bring me
You won't bring me down
aaah
ah-ah-ah-ahhh

**i like the lyrics of this song! :) i heard it from glee, discovered that its from the musical "wicked," found the clip on youtube (but thought it was scary/funny!), and so i am putting the links of glee and orig... FOCUS ON THE LYRICS. :)

awa ang clip sa wicked:


the GLEE version is much better!