me + catalyst = change

last night, i talked to the classmate. we drove around and hung out kahit super ulan.. i told him much of what i wanted to say. it felt good. :) he told me i made him happy. he told me i matured and that he saw me change. i asked him if he could point out areas which need improvement but he said that there was no more because he can see that i am actually doing good. i told him that he had such a positive effect on me. i am really happy that i can tell him these things and that he can take it. i am glad we are friends (and by friends, i mean it the conventional understanding of the word).

i like what i have become. i will not be the same person after this. i would like to think that i have matured. i feel ready to make positive changes in my life... or life-changing decisions that will, hopefully, make me better. i hope i can sustain this feeling. hehe:)

when i woke up this morning i told my HSBFF that "maybe the quick fix iv been searching for in bars and crazy night outs was not to be found there. u know? The epiphany that i needed and wanted to get? maybe i got it through someone over a long period of time.. and now that i recognize what is in front of me and what i need to do, am SKERD!"

love and peace!
god bless you!

foodtrip: ola espana

eating always feels good... but only if its good food. pero kung di masarap yung food, nkakasira ng mood. :)

last monday, fugloid and i went to ola espana at damosa... this month they are serving food buffet style. i think its 350 inclusive of bottomless iced tea and we both thought that the price more than worth it for the food, ambiance and service.

they had only a few viands... i can remember the salad bar, paella, lengua, and the lechon! haha! (imagine, may lechon sa buffet! haha! happiness...) everything that they served was good. its the kind of taste ur mom cant make with her "lutong-bahay".. (no offense..) but that is not to say na lasang foodcourt siya. i was not so fond of the soup that night. i think it was crab or shrimp based... and it was thick. and it left a not so pleasant aftertaste.. but the dessert was good.


as for the ambiance, whether u stayed inside or outside, it was really nice and cozy and clean. may wine cellar sila. the comfort rooms are nice and wont make you too shy to go peepee. :)

as for service, the people are nice and attentive. :)

we give ola espana four thumbs up.

wee! cheers dears!

and again... this is about "the classmate" haha! he was just nice last night.. no, more like back to his old self. he evn asked me what time ako uuwi when he arrived home.. weird huh?

i wanna talk to him. i told him that there's something i wanna talk to him about and his eyes widened. haha! ulol! maybe that's why he made an effort last night.. but whatever. i wont over-analyze nor over-react to this because i have been getting over the whole thing... plus my tarot card reading today says:

"Be the calming force in chaos. Possible to overcome addiction to substance, people or relationships. Obsession passing. Order being restored. Bring calm to mind and behavior patterns. A time of peace is beginning."
and
"Take a step back before plowing ahead as someone is not seeing things the way you do. A possible block on the horizon to your plans. A warning sign. Someone is stifling you."

and the three of swords has always been there to always remind me of the presence of support from family and friends... :)

the sem is over and i am ecstatic! :)

adding insult to injury

wee! i just got home from another nice dinner with mike... we had milkshakes too! :) yumm! :) i have not studied for an exam on wednesday, but i dont really care about that right now..

you see, i admit to being something just a bit less than a stalker... and everyday, being the stalker that i am, i check this persin's facebook page.. today, i look at persin's page and see that someone posted a usual "kantsaw" (of me&him) on his page... and all he had to say regarding the issue is "halucination... hahaha" kaperfect noh? on top of that, i can sense that he is avoiding me. he would only text me if he needs to ask me something and that already comes with a "tnx" -suggesting that if i gave him an answer, i should not expect him to answer back. he does not look at me anymore too! it is as if i was not there. and if he needed to talk to my mom or dad, he would ask them directly this time.. unlike before that he would ask me about it first..

yes, it sucks that he is now avoiding me like a disease.. but that's already pushing it. he does not need to add insult to injury. he was the one who thought that i/it was "unhealthy" and he was the one who had problems, not me. i was the one who was dumped, not him. he does not get to be mad. baga siya ug nawong! why is he like this? WTF is wrong with him???

i have not been antagonistic towards him. i have not been trying to pursue him. he does not really need to add insult to injury.

14 days to go...

...and its the end of sem! i wont have to see my dearest classmate for the longest time. :) im looking forward to just focusing on myself and my family, business, travel... i am just eager to get rid of this unhealthy set-up. im soo sick of it.

i proud me coz i have not smoked in 3 weeks! :) yeah... and i have not had coke in such a long time, i lost count. :) im on a path to get rid of those that are unhealthy... (except maybe alcohol... :) i also proud me for no longer getting jealous. haha! but still, im looking forward to taking some time off from the major stressors i have right now, like study, him, etc...

as much as i hate having to take a break from school, i feel like i need this break for myself. i just feel so tired and burned out. i have a lot of issues that i need to work out. i need time to take a break and recuperate.. to fix myself. i cant wait to go back to my old self.. (naremember nako among pagkakiat atong time na this pic was taken hehe:)

so to schooling: you can bet that if i come back, i will be better.
and to my classmate: if you want me back, you know what to do and where to find me. if u dont, please dont worry about me, im fine. :) haha! :)

adios amigos! :)
god bless you!
*mwah*