set the BAR

i went to the the last sunday of this year's bar operations... SOO.PER.FUN. :)

i wanna enrol myself next sem na!!! bahala na si darna kung paano ki imamanage yun! bahala na!!! bahala na ang pagbalance ng money making activity at acads! bahala na. dive na to!! go na! hahaha!

chakabelles. ganun pala ang barOps... nakakatuwa. nakakatouch. nakakaiyak. nakakatuwa. nakakatakot. as ruffa would put it (in that tunog bading voice of hers): NAKAKA-LOW-KAH.. :)

i want that for myself (that, among other things). i forgot who i was and what i wanted last year... and the bar ops reminded me of who i was and what i wanted (even stuff that have nothing to do with law) back then. :) but the year that passed has taught me to trust God more... this time, i understand that i need to worry less about getting the things i want because if God meant for me to have it, then it shall be mine. :)

TAL ver 09/09 vs TAL ver 09/10

here are some of the obvious upgrades:

1. dyeing my hair was out of the question. :)
2. couldnt wear high-waisted pecil skirts with really high pumps in broad daylight, nor tube dresses w/o cardigans over them. im definitely more vain now.
3. i am 10 pounds lighter now. woohoo!
4. i no longer drink. i stopped since may 1, 2009.
5. it has been a little more than a year since my last stick of yo... :)
6. dili na ko igat!!! haha! i no longer how to employ "da mubs" nor drop flirty teasing lines. and i do not want to be seen as someone like that anymore. i now understand that sex is only a currency during desperate times. hehe:)
7. i actually partnered with my HS bestfriend to launch a business in fashion.
8. i want to be employed now... and stay in that company for good. haha! inow understand that working, being employed, or aligning urself with a company for the longest time does not mean you'll sink into mediocrity.
9. i think i can manage my *ehem* feelings now. or at least i'd like to think i can. hehe:)
10. i have more faith... in God, the universe, my friends, my family, and most importantly myself. i feel tougher now. charuuuuuuuuut! :) haha!

i know, i know.

one full year has passed since we called it quits in dimsum diner guerrero. remember?

you know, so much has passed and so many things happened. i still feel some amount of pain, but i no longer remember all our memories. i can hardly remember how it was. time has made me forget.

now, the only struggle i have is getting over all the things that i have been through and all the things that i discovered about myself. i just need to get over the loss of my naivety (no, not the sexual kind, but more like rose-tinted glasses approach to relationships). since i realized that i was wrong about so many things, i feel like i need to reconstruct myself and focus on coming up with a better version of myself this time. para next year, lahi na imong makita ta ako!! haha!

september ending

1. i still dont have a job. haha! i have not really excerted extra effort to look for one because i will be on travel till the second week of october.
2. i have decided to pursue photography... but i can not yet afford a good camera... not until i get a job. hehe:)
3. closure? nope. i dont have that yet.

so i guess i'm still in the grey area but this timei have a more colorful perspective. hows that? :)

god bless.
ciao!

wake me up when---

---september ends...

i hope by the end of this month, i would no longer be in the gray area and i would have a job, a new hobby, and closure. :)
wish me luck! :)

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i had a lot of fun with mike last friday.
we took pictures and we watched despicable me.
the pictures look nice -salamat kay nakapraktis na jud ko ug edit. and walking around with a camera was liberating... ambot. i really missed the feeling... i have forgotten how good it felt. :) and it takes some time to get over despicable me due to agnes' cuteness... "its so fluffy im gonna die! its so flufffffaaaaaayyyy!!!" haha!

god bless u.
ciao!