adios 2010!

so this year is about to end... what have i done this year? what happened to me this year? not much.. it feel like i slept through it. hehe:)i was employed, i got back into school, i stopped drinking, never smoked, lost weight, had a fling, met new people and discovered a deeper appreciation for this life. :)

for the coming year, i want to do better. i want to get a job again, get better grades, keep away from drinking or smoking, lose a few more lbs, have a couple more flings (haha), meet more people and continually enrich "the self" as i know it.

i want to be far more responsible and mature (whatever that means) this time. i want to be on time, when it comes to deadlines and appointments. i want to apply myself more. surely there is more for me to do out there, you know? like the rest of this world is outside my comfort zone, mu cocoon, my shell, my head... and i should do more. i just need to figure out what it is that i need to do.. :) maybe i'll get a hobby or read more novels. i feel empty, dry and lacking depth or perception sometimes. haha! luoy. i wanna be less impulsive and aggressive when it comes to the matter and manner of my speaking habits and stuff... i need to be more quiet and far more centered. :) i need to be more careful and less reckless. essentially, i need to improve!~ haha! :)

good luck to me.
god bless u! ciao!

intuition?

something is off... i dont know what it is. i can not fix it if i dont know what's wrong. i dont even know if there is some sense of urgency... i can just feel it in my bones... its making my flesh shiver... and the butterflies in my tummy are going crazy... what is this??