im sorry.

dont you just hate saying that? dont you hate hearing that?

does it not sound soooo insincere? either because u've heard it so many times or u've said it so many times...

kainis. i did not think i'd feel this much pain over the idea that you might be ending what we had over something so petty.. but then, i dont blame you if forgiveness does not come easily to you... even if i explained that it meant nothing to me, and you already judged me out of anger... wala na akong magagwa if u've already made up your mind... how can you make someone listen if they dont even want to hear you?

i just really hate the part na i dont know what to do... na di ko man lang nasabi sayo how deeply i care for you... na i dont want you to go... na ur not really showing signs that you want me/us to fix this... na parang andali lang para sayo na sumuko...

i've already decided to act normal... like i always did. and to go all in. i'm gonna gamble... lay all my cards on the table and tell you how much you mean to me... how deeply i care for you... how i could not do that which you accuse me of because i already have very strong feelings for you; feelings that wish to be carried through out the year until the next summer and the rest of the summers of my life. *char*

if that does not work, maybe all i can hope for is your genuine friendship.

ciao!
god bless you.
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God, tabangi ko... *fingers crossed*

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One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home

What would you do if I could have you?
Oh if I could
I'd let you feel everything I'm thinking
Wouldn't that be nice?

One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you

--- from one of these days by michelle branch