i told them about my new kras nicely aliased "papi chulo." mah bitchies (meaning my homo and my homie) encouraged me to whore it up. of course, the maria clara side of me is stopping me. pero wa na! nagkabuang na ko ug pugong sa mga nangabugto sa akong mga sinina! haha! but seriously, i want him to work hard for it. i dont want him to hide his intentions, sexual or otherwise. or maybe its not hidden and i'm just dense. :) either way, my decision is: di muna. :) ienjoy ko muna yung little things that make me kilig... :D i miss the kilig factor. hehe:) and i kinda like the guilt from stalking, watching and drooling over him from afar. maybe i'm making up excuses or in denial. but i don't think so. i dont want to complicate things yet. and to be his "friendly beneficiary" is not a very good idea because we are moving around in a very small circle. its cramped enough as it is and it cannot accommodate complications. so i cant. i'll have to play it cool and do it the old fashioned way.
the thing is, when i talk about my crushes, or when i finally acknowledge that i like them, i cant play it cool! haha! whattalozer. i'm already torpe for papi chulo as it is. he is just so effing hot. and i feel like i cant emphasize it enough. so i keep saying it. and i feel like i'm setting myself up for a heartbreak with this one. as much as i'd like to know him better, i'm quite comfy with the distance we have. he is just... haay nalang.
they say, the brain is the sexiest organ. he is smart. sexy smart. manly smart. makalanay smart! haha! he is passionate and lazy. crazy when he wants to be. ahd the fact that he knows himself well is soooo sexy, for me.lets not even talk about him physically..
ok. enough. i've drooled over him a bit too much. i'm going to stop. my bitchies are tired of me talking about papi chulo.
so bite me!
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