merry christmas...

this holiday season is something i wanted for the past few years. i have always wanted a quiet christmas, one that was not so stressful or over-rated. i wanted to try celebrating the holidays quietly, instead of spending it over-eating and putting up with drunken relatives who end up quarreling.

however, this christmas, sad to say was something that i did not quite feel. i was too busy with the initiation process that if feels like i was not prepared nor psyched about the holidays. i failed to get excited that's why it feels like we are just going through the motions- wrapping presents, going to family gatherings, blahblahblah... i guess i just have too much on my plate this time.

i have yonie's wedding to think about. i don't have a dress yet. my brother is away this christmas. the hongkong trip is also coming and i have not yet prepared. i have not packed yet and i have not saved money yet. i thought my mom was going to cancel it since my lola is still in the hospital. she's getting better by the way. we might be able to take her home before the new year, so yeay! :) at least that's one less baggage... but i need to get a driver's license and fix my philhealth papers... and i'm excited about going to school next year, though... haha! parang joke noh? but yeah, i miss my friends. i have not spoken to any of them for a month! and finally, i can be my bossy hambugera self again next year. and oh, i look forward to spending time with my cousins! i have a new pamangkin... that's one less cousin to hang out with, but that also means a new beautiful baby boy is welcomed to the family. (puloy has a son now. congratz gaw!) i look forward to chilling with Kappatids over the break too! ay tskaka yung manila trip with princess pa pala on the third weekend of january... no money na talga ako... :(

hmm.. m not so sure i want this kind of christmas break again next year. i want one with less to think about, less worries, and less chorbah! hehe:) i want one that is simple, full of good times with family and friends. i want the christmas i used to have when i was a kid, because i was not so preoccupied with grown-up stuff that i could still think about the essence or the spirit of christmas.. blahblahblah... yun! alam mo na ginamean ko diba? :) ayt..

happy holidays!
peace and love
xoxo