disclaimer *set1

1. its a habit of mine to point out that i like this thing or that person. i just say i like it. do with it whatever you will. i don't even care kung malisyahan mo. hehe:) basta walang malisya saken yun!

2. i am a touchy-feely person. i love to touch things... and persons. but dont get me wrong, walang malisya sakin yun uie! i understand it might be detrimental to me kay it makes me look like some desperate skank, but i am just wired that way...

3. and no, my crush does not take up all the free space in my head. i dont have one man running through my head all the time or like, not everything that i do is motivated by my crush. it would feel like you belittle me if you think that.

4. shux, do i love alcohol? or do i just like it to the nth level??? either way, i enjoy it. much. i am scared of being an alcoholic though... hehe:)

5. i hate it when i dont get even. i need to get even. i dont care hw long it takes or how many times i try. i just have to.

6. somtimes i tell stories which you dont really care about. im not trying to be fake or oa or whatever pintas you have for it. Nor am i trying to give the impression that my world is bigger that it is. in fact, murag mugamay gani siya kay little things that ordinarily wouldnt matter to many people matters to me. pathetic. hehe:) usually, if it involves friends, i tell them because i was deeply touched and i dont know how to process that emotion. i was not wired that way. haha! if its about crushes, wla teh, nalingaw na ko ana. hihi:)

7. i dont care much about what people say behind my back. especially when it comes to petty things like my behavior at bbq boss last night or basti's... hihi:) or that i stink... because i know i do. hehe:) or whatever comment people might have about me, because i might have heard them before and there might be truth to them. if these opinions are devoid of truth, people are still entitled to their own opinions or perception or interpretation of certain things. that's fine.

8. and yes, i am mean, suplada, maldita, or other similar adjectives. hehe:) but the question is, can you handle it??? nakz! hehe:)

9. i love my friends. that's probably one of the things i take some pride in. i am not plastic either. if i stay away from you, its with good reason. if i keep bugging you, its because i like you mucho... but that kind of liking does not necessarily translate into anything romantic.

you see? i'm pretty simple... haha!

love and peace!
ciao!

10 places in 9 hours

1. house.
2. durian bar, madrazo. beer, new friends, old friends, free lighters at a laundryshop in ponciano.
3. coffee at basti's victoria.
4. torres.
5. a friend and sisses at autoshop compound.
6. beer at urban club. videoke, pictures, coke, chippy, old friends, new friends at malibago times beach.
7. beer, music, rappers as new friends at seawall.
8. anti-allergy meds at L.A. tugbok
9. fries, burgers, drinks and an old high school chum at mcdo matina.
10. dencio's hilltop for daybreak

a superfriend made the night more memorable for me and my cousin...
tnx superfriend!

i sustained bruises that night... and bite marks... on both arms...

i got pix as evidence...


i wonder who is to blame for all this... hmm... any ideas?? hehe:)


peace and love to all.
ciao!

kalami mulupad.

kalami mubuhi sa tanan kabug-at sa kalibutan ug mulupad.

crushing and crashes

in a game of truth or dare kanina, sa seagull, my latest super friend asked me if i actually imagined myself in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with chorvah. and i said no. because i felt like i did'nt. and of course they did not believe me... i thought about it as we played cards some more and i realized that i did not actually imagine myself to be in that kind of relationship with chorbah. (thank god! di pa ako pressumptous and deperate enough to fantasize and romanticize echoz...) sure, i wanna hold his hand, hug him at most, but beyond that, i think not...

one trait that i have is i tend not to set myself up for a heartbreak. i know when and how to use reality checks. plus, its not really my habit to count the chickens before the eggs are hatched. its never been my cup of tea... its dangerous and potentially disastrous, so i trained the mind not to do it.

i know that what im saying now seems contrary to the tone or subtext in my earlier posts... but really, i have not thought or fantasized about it... grabeh... naisip ko na lingaw siguro if i did this or that with him, but things can be done without being in a relationship right???

kay sa tinuod lang, hadlok uie! hadlok ko ana! hahaha!~ scurred ko magcrash and burn! dili ko magtuga-tuga unless kabalo ka na dili ka binuangan or at least sobra ka worth it diba??? and right now, i dont know if this is another trick the fates are paling on me or if this ride is weel worth taking a risk for...

actually, murag naga-sawa napud ko, or like gikapoy napud ko of this phase wherein i crush other people... i feel like going back to my crushless/crashless old self. in fact, feeling nako, kung dati i was bored and crushing, karon i am not bored and crushing less.

i am fine with the way things are, now, that he is not the only person i'd like to pay attention to. i crush other people. and i miss soo many people that i wanna spend time lots of time with each one of them...

i am being super careful about crushing and crashes... so, no, i did not. scary. hehe

peace and love.
ciao!

ps, super friend, earlier, i asked if you should discourage me from liking chorbah, in the same manner that we dont think its a good idea for N to like burirot. i asked you kay somehow i wanted to confirm my suspicions that chorbah like burirot who is not in the phase where he is looking for something serious... yun yun! hehe:)

a super old blog enrty dated 8.24.2005

pagnakakita ka ng artista, majojologs ka!

davao was flooded with stars last kadayawan.... they were booked in different hotels all over the city.

I was an intern for the city tourisms office and we were doing interviews for press releases in line with the celebration.

In one hotel, during an interview, 4 men (not guys, but men...) walked into the lobby. they were wearing white shirts that fit just right. they looked sooo clean... at habang tinitingnan mo sila filling mo ambangobango nila... ang kulay ng lips nila ay nakacontrast sa kanilang kutis na makinis at maputi. di ma namamalayan na nakanganga ka na... then you feel the drool making its way down your chin, kaya namulat ka sa katotothanan.

in the hoel lobby with less than 20 people, there were sharp intakes of breath followed by whispers. i then saw my classmates rushing to the "stars" to have their picture taken. So then, I decided to follow them...

My friend approached this "man" who lingered in the lobby and asked if she could have a picture with him. he said yes, but never did anything to cooperate. (salamat ha!?) he just kept on txng... haay naku... it was like napahiya niya ang kanyang tagahanga... (man, you just lost a few fans... keep it up and you might just lose your job, man...)

So, kinunan ko na rin sila ng picture, nakatayo na rin siya sa tabi ng artista eh... so they walked away and I was looking at the photos I took... when I looked up, a yummy man was walking papunta sa direction ko... so I asked "pwede magpapicture?" he said "oo. sure." so yeay for me.

I stood beside him kasi nga baka KJ din siya... but nope... Umakbay siya eh... so involuntarily, nanginig ang lola... at slightly nataranta... hehe:) I could not decide which hand I would used to take our picture, so he was very nice and said "ako nalng, d2 na, mas mahaba ito (meaning his arm's reach, of course!) and so I handed him the camera and he pressed the button - all the while, I was bottling my "gggggaaaaahhhhhsssss" and "ssssssyyyyyyyyyeeeeeettttsssss!"

naignoy talaga ako sa isang human being - sa isang lalake for that matter. it was a weird moment for me... kasi I could feel his solid body next to mine. and his arm was around me. and my hand was on his back. and we ad our picture taken, and thye worst part is : i did not know his name... pero ang yummy niya...

wrtting and saying and thingking the word "yummy" and attaching it to some man is weird. ganito ba talaga pag malaki ka na? alam mo na aga ano ang "yummy" in terms of men kahit wal ka pang karanasan sa kanila? parang, alam mo lang kaagad ano ang "yummy" pagmalaki ka na... parang instant mami - yummy!

anyway, going back to my tittle, bakit nga ba nakakajologs ang mga artista? parang all of a sudden, nagmumukha kang tanga, pero ayos lang. it does not seem to matter... pero why are we all of a sudden on jologs mode?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ella was saying it kanina... and i was thinking that its probably because of two things...

una, kasi bihira mo lang sila makita. pag nakita mo sila, sa TV pa. eh sa TV hindi mo nafifeel na tao sila. Hindi mo sila nahahwakan at hindi mo makita ng buo ang katawan nila. Parang hindi possible na tao sila. Parang taga-ibang mundo sila. Kaya pag nakit mo sila as in sa harapan mo na, parang di ka makapaniwala na siya yun!!! gusto mo na magpalitrato dahil ito na yung one and only chnace mo to prove na tao nga siya at nakita mo pa! naksama mo. at nakausap mo pa! nakasama pa ng isang maladiyos na nilalang ang isang tulad mo sa litrato. Ang litrato/katangahan mo ay isang patunay na tao nga sila.

besides, even if youre not really a fan, interacting with someone famous is always a story of public interest. Kasi kilala sila ng karamihan. People are curious what they people they see on screen do when theyre not on TV. ganado ka magkwento sa mga kakilala mo... kasi yung konting interaction mo tells you what kind of person he or she really is kung wala sila sa screen playing somebody else. We see so much of them in different modes (contrabida, bida, kikay, sexy. atbp.) but we never really know wha they are like as persons. and having your picture taken with them is a once in a lifetime opprtunity.

Another thing, iba kasi pag kasama ka nila... (lalo na pagnakaakbay or nakabeso) kasi feeling mo, reyna ka ng buong mundo. for a second or two you'd think that you are the only person/nobody na inakabyan o hinagkan niya ever. feeling mo ang ganda mo - AS IN!!! Siguro what I'm trying to say is like the Fleur-Bill thing in HP6... "i am beautiful enuf for the two of us." in reverse nga lang kasi, the celebrity is beautiful and famous enough for the two of you. parang feeling mo, nahawa ka rin sa kagandahan at kasikatan niya. haha! :)

and last, fan ka talaga. follower of his accomplishments and works. sinasamba mo ang genius niya... kaya gusto mo na kahit minsan may patunay ka na nagmeet nga ang landas nyo...

so, hala! mag-artista hunting ka na! :)

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funny noh? wala lang... i was such a wide-eyed kid... embarrassing, but its funny!!! haha!!! and here is the pic-----

hahaha!!!

geez.

love and peace y'all!
love and peace!

ciao!

me likee!!!

this is my monkey mangkin stuffing her face with siopao. its funny they look alike. hehe:)

wala. i just wanted to share it. and this quote:

If I find out what’s bothering me, what this tumor is that’s eating away at my brain, compelling me to doubt my own capacity to be sane, you’ll be the first to know.

its by caravaggio. karelate ko! wee!

love and peace!
ciao!

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“Too much assumption is the mother of all f*ck-ups”, it says in Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels, that Guy Richie film.

i got the quote from caravaggio of peyups, in her article Driver's Ed 101 : How to Fall in Love.

in that article, she shared the experience of a girl pal who did not fully appreciate the romantic fraca of her boyfriend, as she was being cautious and keeping herself from getting hurt. The other story was of caravaggio's guy friend who actually thought that there was something going on between him and an incredibly charismatic girl, but when charismatic girl was asked she apologeticaly said wala talaga. haay. too bad for the boyfriend of the cautious girl and too bad for the guy in love with charismatic girl. but then, there is no manual on how to love, or how to safeguard your heart, diba?

in the article caravaggio said:

We learn these lessons after heartbreak: think with your head, not with you heart. Don’t rush into things. Don’t assume. Don’t look for things that aren’t there, and don’t ignore things that are in front of you.

But whatever happened to all the other lessons we are taught when not recovering from heartbreak? The lessons we learn in love stories and song lyrics and movie lines? Take the risk. Love is possible without pain or misery. There’s someone out there for us. Don’t be alarmed if you fall head over feet. Wise men say, only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love for crying out loud.

so what is it supposed to be? you dont really know for sure diba?? caravaggio said that falling in love is a lot like driving. makikibagay ka lang sa daan. if its bumpy, you might wana take extra care, keep it agonizingly slow... and slowly but surely, ull get to ur destination. if the road is wide and long, you feel like going fast, but you risk having a good crash and burn.

parang di parin nasasagot yung tanong ko kung paano dapat...

driving requires one not to ignore what is in front of him. the problem is, i dont know what is infront of me! i dunno how to proceed... with caution? or with care tossed to the air?

this is why i dont drive. this is why i dont love. i dont know how.

love and peace beeyotch!

ciao!

get me outta my mind... get u outta those clothes...

i'm at the effing library! haha! after such a long time of not being here, it feels funny...

i used to spend my days here. back in the first semester i was here all day reading my brains out. then i stopped. i stopped reading. so i stopped ocming here. the last time that i actually spent time here was last december, during initiation. but when that ended, i had no more reason to come here. and now, when the school year is 3 exams away from being over, i am here again! hehe:)

i feel like i am back to where i started... well, sort of kinda medj... hehe:) i dont know if i should take this as a good sign and make myself believe that i have changed, and that my attitude adjustments make me well equiped... or more ready to answer the demands of the next school year... i really dont know yet. i might not enroll at all next year because i dont think i have made the proper attitude adjustments and lifestyle changes necessary for me to do better next year. we'll see!

peace and love to all!
ciao!

yeah, im thinkin' summer...

yes, i am looking forward to the summer break. and here are a few things i wanna do:

• party at the beach! party from the sunset! party all night! party till day breaks!

• join my friends on a roadtrip/nature trip to lake suedad! haha!

• engage in a new money-making endeavor. and actually make oodles of moolah! hehe

• go camping... preferably at the beach. and spend quality time with quality friends... haha!

• zipline!

• visit the "beer garden" in tagum and see more of panabo. :) i gotta visit digos too!

• visit manila and have a a serious nostalgia trip. i wanna sit all day at sbc, and pretend like or feel like i am on my day off... haha! i just wanna soak in the ambiance.

• go to lb and quezon for business. quiapo area, too! for new business endeavor. hihi:)

• visit 5 places/provinces i've never been to. and eat new delicacies and try new things...

• meet relatives in manila... the ones i've been hiding from! haha! and meet brod/sisses, as well as housemates and other friends... the ones i've been dying to see! hehe:)

• i wanna hold the hand of who used to be my own personal shot of SCOTch. and flirt with PS when i see him. haha! igat. i just miss them.

• acquire a new skill, like sewing or cooking. (pang housewife?) hahaha!

basically, i dont want this summer to go to waste. i dont want a day to pass when i did not have fun or learn or accomplish anything. i want this to be as fruitful as possible. i want it to be a blast! i want it to be unforgettable...

love and peace y'all!
ciao!

yuck!

yesterday, i found out that chennelyn was chorbah's girlfriend.

initial reaction in my mind was "whaw. gwapa na sexy iyang eks." and for some weird reason unknown to me at that time, i got sour... or maybe bitter. i had a paper due so i had to work. but the bit of info i got gnawed at my nerves, so i had no choice but to clear my head and process my thoughts on paper. so i asked myself "nganong nalain man akong mood? ahm... affected ko? eeiw." daryl said "luoda nimo uie!" and all i could say was " i know, right?"

then i started to hate the fact that i was still affected... kala ko kasi tapos na yung crushin-on-chorbah phase ko... haay. hopefully over the summer, it'll all be over...

luau - luauan

tostar 09 was fun... for me, at least. :) it was my first time to get out of the house in a skirt that short. my cousins could not get over it. i was with kuya el when i bought it and he did not think i'd actually wear it. and mona kept laughing at me coz, in spite of the skirt's length, i found ways to wear shorts underneath it. hehe:) pero dapat daw kasi nakadress... (haay... the things i do for sigma tau mu...:)

owee and lil o'l mee!

i was selling tickets, collecting payment from brods/sisses and other walk-in guests. :) i could not leave my post too long. which meant i starved and remained sober for the most part of the night. i so wanted to drink... and take advantage of the over flowing beer and coke rhum... and get a taste of the lechon and sashimi!

that's me "working" hehe:)
(good luck if u can find me!)

i was able to get away for a few times to 1.) meet my family who ate halo-halo at the park 2.) check up on my cousins, which i kinda forced to sit at the lex talionis table 3.) light up a few cigs 4.) interact with the friends i really-trully-wanted ("forced" is the more appropriate term, actually.. hehe) to come... (too bad i dont have pix of them with my cousins who say they had fun at the lex table...)

when i finally abandoned my post, i drank till wee oh wee oh wee hours in the morning... too bad, the new found friends i really-trully-wanted to0 come already left... dryl left early, cby left with some chick daw (haha!), ving left coz he was drunk na and his cousin was missing, jp left when the lechon had gone... i think. hehe:) fuzzy memory...

buti nalang ndun pa si eb at si oka! naharash jud ko pagkiss ni oka sa nape ni eb! my eyes were less than a foot away from the spot where oka's pout met eb's skin, and i heard the smack! it was a rather hot kiss/smack, but it was kinda wrong on different levels! haha! eb kept telling me to get him beer, and i kept asking kung makadrive pa siya. then he said "aw oo! makadrive pa man gani kog sakyanan!" hehe:) nice one. nastun ko kay wa ko nagexpect ug somethng like that from him, i guess... hehe:)

but there were also other things i found funny, like tope's stripping and pingguy's giling, tomas and his promise of chismis (hehe), ceby letting me read JT's txt about mona, nanlibre si jp ug lechon, nica's tube top, chikka ni mick, and mcdo!!! hehe:)

basta, i also remember being on a "tau mu high" (if ther is such a thing)... u know that feeling when ur drinking with people and having fun and you look around and you see everyone else seems to be enjoing and chilling, and suddenly ur filled with an overwhelming sense of pride because you took part in pulling off an event that brought memories and laughter to many people. its one of those warm and fuzzy feelings... hehe:)

lahat ng tau mu na natitira lapit sa stage para magpapicture!

i got home around 6am -ish, i think... i had fun, i know... i did not want it to end, so lets do it again! haha!

love and peace to all!
ciao!

timing is everything.

the week before the last oblicon exam i had, the week before that was hell. it was my lola's wake. i had a couple of exams last sat and i was not feeling well during the days when i should have been studying for the two exams. this saturday, i have oblicon finals coming up. and my papa wont be out of the hospital till tomorrow morning (not to mention a couple of papers due this week), so malamang di napud ko kastudy. but that's alright. i just noticed that this sem, whenver i had big exams coming up, something happened before said exam which kept me from studying. wierd timing.

"baby, baby tell me wats up?"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SBaeQVqBfUA

lookie? lookie. lookie!!! :)

first night by monica.

peace and love!
ciao!

ps. i have this feeling that my fantasy na maginuman sa beach is about to come true... monday! i wanna make it happen on monday. who is coming?? :)

push button to eject fraca--

sobrang lungkot ko ngayon, sa mga araw na ito. nakakapagod. nakakawala ng gana... gana para sa buhay. kunsabagay, kasalanan ko rin naman... kasalanan ko kasi di ko kinukwento kung ano talaga ang bumabagabag sa akin. mahirap kasi magkuwento sa isang tao na alam mong hindi tunay na makikinig or sa taong hindi makakaintindi. marami namang pwede sabihan, pero siguro sakim ako in that sense dahil gusto ko akuin lahat ng bigat ng buhay.

isa pa, kahit kaibigang tunay mo pa yan, hindi ganon kadaling aminin na malungkot ka or may issues ka. haha! dahil lagi mo silang kasama sa saya diba? panget naman kung ikaw pa ang dahilan kung bakit sumama ang mood nila. sapat na sa akin na alam kong anjan sila pag di ko na kaya.

madali lang naman maging masaya. ang kailangan mo lang ay maglagay ng ngiti sa iyong mga labi. kung sana ganoon lang kadali ngumiti... ang mahirap lang sa pagiging masaya ay ang pagdama ng saya sa puso mong pagod na. pero anong kinalaman ng puso kung "happiness is a state of mind" ha? hehehe:) its either mali ko or ang quote... pero malamang ako. haha!

alam kong di pa ako nangagnalahati. mahaba pa dapat ang buhay ng tao diba? pero paano yan kung ayaw ko na?

sige, magcontemplate sa ko sa mysteries sa universe ug magdiscover ug new ways to die. hehe:)

peace and love to all!
ciao!

what the F@#$ have you done lately?

last night, i

played billiards,

drank some beers,

and shared a secret with a couple of musketeers.

last night, i threw caution to the wind, and lived.
hate me for it. i don't mind.

peace and love to all!
ciao!

i fell asleep beneath the flowers for a couple of hours...

today, i had a dream but my eyes were wide open.

1. i fantasized about being in a coffee shop, writing down thoughts... thoughts about nothing in particular. just whatever that comes to mind. i wish i could just sit there and soak in nothingness. just sit and chill and daydream. i want to be in the same ambiance, but with no pressure this time.
i want to do that one of these days.

2. i also fantasized about being at the beach. i want to watch the sun set, drunk and happy. i want to drink at the beach with a few friends. i dont care if i bathe or not. i just want the sand in my toes and in my ass. haha! i want the time to pass, with me not caring about anything and feeling like i have the luxury of time to watch the sun set. i want to appreciate the sun set too, not just watch. so i wanna sit by the shore, with the sand between my toes, and the bottle of alcohol in hand. i just want to feel the breeze, listen to the waves and chill with good friends.

soon. very soon.

peace and love to all!
ciao!

*** and yeah, i just had to write this down... i remember telling people who ask me kung kelan ko pa naging crush si mr.chorbah, na naging kras ko siya at this particular date (and moment when i asked for something from him). but then, i was looking at old files in my PC and i realized that i kras him way back pa pala. hehe:) i took a pic with him in it pala! hehe i remember the exact feeling, or sentiment i had when i took a picture and included him. kahit nasira yung composition at nawalan ng sense ang peechur, basta andun yung mukha niya! at di ko pa siya "so-called-friend" nun! haha! funny how things work out minsan noh?

art of the tease/ dita von teese/ dah maka buntis! haha

dita with a martini glass

Born Heather Renee Sweet in Rochester, Michigan on September 28, 1972, she adopted the name Dita as a tribute to silent film actress Dita Parlo, and her breakthrough 2002 Playboy cover gave her the last name "Von Teese".

dita in a martini glass

Dita has become famous for her burlesque performances where she can be seen writhing around in an over-sized martini glass.

The former glamour model has even outlined her unique take on undressing in public in a bestselling book Burlesque And The Art Of The Teese/Fetish And The Art Of The Teese.

personally, i like her because:

• she managed to come off as respectful even though the things she "specializes" in are ordinarily associated with *ehem* durrty sex.
• she's transformed herself from a sweet looking blonde to this dark vixen. and she's hot.
• she dares to talk about things which many people feel uncomfortable discussing because, i think, that it is with her line of work that the mind (psychological part of sexual fulfillment) and the body (physical gratification) meet, and a lot of a person's character is discovered thru the art of teasing or thru fetish.
• plus i just like her old american pin-up sense of style. :D

peace and love!
ciao!

ps. m going back to reading. m just taking a break.

makongs merry making

a couple of fugly folks greeting each other by biting each cheeks

makong's bday celeb was march 6. super fun. i missed him mucho. i missed the people there too. i miss that kind of party. grabeh naman kasi talaga tong si mike mag parteyh! babaha ang beer. chivas. jhny (if you can) WALKer. beer bongs. etc. and syempre, the company is super nice. his brthday parties are always something to look forward to, because its a gthering of the greatest people on earth with the best drinks invented by man and the most fun you can imagine! haha! :)

a re-enactment of him biting my cheek. hehe:)

ire-enact pajud noh? adik jud... by the way fugly, its the first time i got bitten by a person on the cheek. it hurt when i washed my face the morning after, and all my mother could say was "may rabies din baya ang tao jing..." hahaha!

peace and love to all!
ciao!

fugly, miss you! thanks mucho! xoxo

over yow...

ang taong madaming niloloko, madaming trust issues! haha!

when you trust people easily, you are more prone to betrayals and being hurt by people you care about. it sucks... no, its heartbreaking, kasi minsan pareho lang ang sakit ng betrayal na gawa ng kaibigan at ka-ibigan. its hard to find people who can be trusted. its even harder to have your guard down and trust people. but not knowing how to trust people, is tantamount to not trusting yourself... and with that, you deprive yourself the full experience of life.

so dude, take a risk... trust me (on that). hahaha!!! the dark side is not so scary, nor will it be so wrong, as long as you trust yourself enough...

love and peace!
ciao!

today--

1. today, nastress ko sa 9th day sa akong lola. it really got me down. i realized the "should haves, could haves, and would haves" in terms of how i was as an apo and how i am as a daughter, friend and/or person. i konw i can not do much for my lola and there is no way for me to make up for "should haves, could haves, and would haves" with my lola, but at least i can do better as a daughter, friend, and/or person.

2. i saw an super old friend. one that i have had since childhood. even when he was in manila, he would write to me, just to keep me posted and ask me how i was. that kind of friendship is something i would like to keep forever. i saw him kanina and it took him a few seconds to recognize me. haha! the look on his face was priceless! haha! i was happy to see him. im glad he is back in town and is working nearby coz keeping in touch would be much easier. i look forward to sharing a bottle of rhum or two with him again.

3. nagfood trip kami ni john and konger today. hehe:) john said "kapoy ang life" and i could not agree more. hehe:) and i can not expound on that either. its clear as day. too bad i was down... we had to cut the little reunion short coz my mood was contagious. hehe:) there were just a few things running through my head. sorry guys. (and no, konger, its not related to crushie-wushies. hehe:)

4. i realized that we only drink with people we trust ourselves with. aside from the fact that we trust them, we trust ourselves with them. maybe its because its these types of people that we find it okay to be vulnerable. syempre when ur intoxicated, you have the tendency to do crazy things, diba? i guess that is why we associate good company with alcohol. it is through alcohlo that we find good company, and it is with alcohol that we enjoy the company of good people more. the tendency is that we value these people and keep them for as long as we can.

5. i also thought about God today... he is quite amazing, isnt he?... thank you Lord.

i need to learn to sleep early. i need to learn to sleep, so...

peace and love!
ciao!

The notes are old They bend, they fold And so do I to a new love

i know myself well enough to say that once i like someone, as a friend, crush or something else, the fondness may wane or fade, but i always have the tendency to harbor the genuine appreciation for that person, and when fate brings us closer (to work together or something) there is ahuge tendedcy for that fondness to come back... delikado noh? hehe:)

i know i've told brian that i have lost interest in mr.chorbah last monday pa... but up until now, i could not really honestly say it...

one problem i know i have is that when i feel a profound fondness (i usually us this term for friends, but i feel the phrase is appropriate to describe the sentiment... read on to understand.) for a person, i normally lose interest in the person. especially if there is nothing that would keep my intrest in him... my attraction towards mr.chorbah would have lasted longer if there was something that kept me going. unlike papi chulo, di siya maharot at di rin siya uber hot. hehe:) unlike my talented mr. witty, not intelectually stimulating siya. unlike the other fraca, ndi siya mabait sa text. haha! (factor ang txt? yeah..) parang ganun?? and you just know his life is too damn busy, at the moment. and no girl can compete with lawschool, right? haha! :) whatever...

il focus my attention on other things... i am not really on crush mode these days. perhaps because of my lola, or maybe because lawschool finals are coming up, or maybe because i am too preoccupied with the things i want to do for the summer... or maybe because of the wonderful people i have been getting to know recently... thank God for the gift of friends.

peace and love to all!
ciao!

ps. i cant bring myself to divulge the name of my current/most recent kras in lawschool is because it might no longer be true, or i might be put in a tight or awkward position, or i am just too demn embarasd. di ko kaya panindigan! haha!

How do I love thee?

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of being and ideal grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.
I love thee freely, as men strive for right.
I love thee purely, as they turn from praise.
I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints. I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life; and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

  -- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

i used to tell linus about my thoughts on 
some poems and simillar crap, 
but i seldom see him in class these days... 
i am happy for his new found joy though... hehe:)
to feel love is... as atty. PRB puts it, wonderful.

stimulation pour autri-

-is any form of stimulation clearly and deliberately conferring a favor upon a third person who has the right to demand its fulfillment and the right to demand satisfaction, provided he communicates his acceptance to the obligor before its consummation.

the requisites are as follows:

1. that there must be stimulation in favor of a third person

2. that the stimulation favoring the third person must be part only, and not whole of the act

3. that the contracting parties must have clearly and deliberately conferred a favor upon a third person, not a mere incidental benefit

4. that the stimulation is not conditioned or compensated

5. that the third person to be stimulated communicated his acceptance

6. neither of the acting parties bears the last name of the third party