crushing and crashes

in a game of truth or dare kanina, sa seagull, my latest super friend asked me if i actually imagined myself in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with chorvah. and i said no. because i felt like i did'nt. and of course they did not believe me... i thought about it as we played cards some more and i realized that i did not actually imagine myself to be in that kind of relationship with chorbah. (thank god! di pa ako pressumptous and deperate enough to fantasize and romanticize echoz...) sure, i wanna hold his hand, hug him at most, but beyond that, i think not...

one trait that i have is i tend not to set myself up for a heartbreak. i know when and how to use reality checks. plus, its not really my habit to count the chickens before the eggs are hatched. its never been my cup of tea... its dangerous and potentially disastrous, so i trained the mind not to do it.

i know that what im saying now seems contrary to the tone or subtext in my earlier posts... but really, i have not thought or fantasized about it... grabeh... naisip ko na lingaw siguro if i did this or that with him, but things can be done without being in a relationship right???

kay sa tinuod lang, hadlok uie! hadlok ko ana! hahaha!~ scurred ko magcrash and burn! dili ko magtuga-tuga unless kabalo ka na dili ka binuangan or at least sobra ka worth it diba??? and right now, i dont know if this is another trick the fates are paling on me or if this ride is weel worth taking a risk for...

actually, murag naga-sawa napud ko, or like gikapoy napud ko of this phase wherein i crush other people... i feel like going back to my crushless/crashless old self. in fact, feeling nako, kung dati i was bored and crushing, karon i am not bored and crushing less.

i am fine with the way things are, now, that he is not the only person i'd like to pay attention to. i crush other people. and i miss soo many people that i wanna spend time lots of time with each one of them...

i am being super careful about crushing and crashes... so, no, i did not. scary. hehe

peace and love.
ciao!

ps, super friend, earlier, i asked if you should discourage me from liking chorbah, in the same manner that we dont think its a good idea for N to like burirot. i asked you kay somehow i wanted to confirm my suspicions that chorbah like burirot who is not in the phase where he is looking for something serious... yun yun! hehe:)