i hate mondays and fridays in law school.
its normal to hate mondays. no need to explain that one. i know i share this sentiment with many lazy-asses out there. howver, i have this new found dislike for fridays for the simple reason that you can hardly enjoy a friday night if ur n law school. friday nights for many folks are either date nights or chill out nights. but for us who have decided to chose a slow and painful way to kill our egos and go to lawschool, friday nights are to be spent sleepless and studying ceaselessly. coz its likely that you have exams on saturday. and guess what? youd even have second thoughts if you should spend your saturday night having fun or chillin, coz you are just too tired after all the studying and the killer exam... shux.
so i hate all the law students who are out drinking tonight. i (secretly) envy you. i know mr.chorbah is out having fun tonight. i hope he gets drunk but does not have fun.
they say you should not drink if you are feeling pain because alcohol intensifies pain. when you pour alcohol over a wound or when you swim in beer to get over ur heartbreak. you act stupid. and you discover feelings of hate, sadness frustrations... and you reach a different level of pain which you would not have known if it was not for alcohol. some say you should drink when your down, but no. its when ur down and drink that you realize how much pain you actually trully feel.
so i hope he is feeling something negative. if he is avoiding me, that means i did something wrong (or that he is avoiding chismis) and it bothers him. certainly those thoughts are not rooted on soemthing pleasant... so i hope he drinks and thinks of me and how my existence bothers him. nyahaha! :) very bad... sige lang... im just bitter. i am allowed to wallow in it, right??
i have exams tomoro. wish me luck. i need it. im just taking a break from all the sanity and structure so prevalent in jurisprudence. this is my way of giving my mind a rest and taking a break from all that is logical and reasonable: blog about crushes. its silly, stupid, juvenille, and effing shallow. whatever. i feel like i can afford taking some sick pleasure in this vice because this is one thing taht gives me relief, from all the stress law school has to offer, that is not physiologically detrimental to me. its a lesser evil.
and yeah, tomorrow, on my exam day, i wont even get to see stupid him. thus, another reason why weekends tend to suck for law students.
inspite af all this negativity, antagonism, and bitterness, i wish you peace and love!!
ciao!
2 comments:
its a normal thing, i guess. things can start with something like a chase (read my recent entry). and i hope the chase gets into something a little more serious before you get drowned in bitterness and the chorbas of it all. and oh, the way im reading it, seems like youre into "regular" communication with him. weeeeee! keep the going. oh, love!
on another note, who says that you cant drink the night before the exam? Did that. it worked. i mean, things were fine the next day. but oh well, we should be more than just being fine. Haha.
yeah, i read ur recent entry. i liked it. :) mucho!
regular communication? nope. hehe:) i just like to playback and sensationalize our brief encounters... nyahaha! cud i be more pathetic?!?!
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