Wednesday, February 18, 2009

in re: gurls, friends and being EI

i dont really have a lot of girl pals. maybe because i sometimes fell like i cannot keep up with how girls are. i prefer the company of boys because they seem to have a simpler (sometimes brute) approach to life, while girls are fussy, dami ka-echosan, and ofcourse gossip in a manner where its like they are digging for dirt (boys also libak, but in a manner that is dismissive, not scandalous).

since yonie and i finished college, there has been less and less interaction between us. besides, we got caught up in the real world (i guess). i guess, that, plus the fact that all the other friends i hold so dear decided that they were ready to take on responsibilities and take on life. my world has drastically changed.

many of the people around me these days are what jaybee would call "diet friends." diet friends are those people whose company you need to keep but you can not take them wholly. you only take certain parts of them because you just cant stand other parts of their personality. its like when you are on a diet and you dont eat everything on ur plate because you think its too much or its bad for you. that's how it is with diet friends. youre not really frenemies or anything like that, its just that, you cannot expect a deeply profound relationship from your diet friends.

it makes lawschool a lonelier place. the prevailing chismax culture is discouraging as it is... but you just have to accept the fact that you dont really know which people you can trust. you dont know which person can trully understand you when you are being the most loser version of yourself. heck, its even difficult to find someone who can talk about ideas, instead of gossip, in law school.

i needed the long girly chikahan i had last night. it was like a breath of frish er. thanks BFFN! haha! here's to word coining!...

peace and love to all!
ciao!

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