last na ka ha? ayp...

1. shux, kahirap pala. who was i kidding?! i cannot be your friend yet. you cannot be my friend yet. no. its too hard. its unhealthy. its inevitable for either of us to put meaning in what the other does. i'm soooo soooo tired na... of seeing you all the time and feeling things, and going thru the same cycle everyday.. KAPOY to be in constant battle with yourself. enough na. if being with me was unhealthy for you, then being your friend is unhealthy for me. if you didnt wanna lose me, too bad. sorry, you shouldnt have acted like a dumb dog.

2. so im gonna eggzert extra effort to cut you off. hard as that may be, but that is what is good for you and for me. dont hate me for it... after all, u decided to cut me out of ur life first. i did not even have a say in it and you told me soooo late. so there!

3. as much as i want you back, i gotta let me go. i still have momentary lapses, and get drowned in emo crap, but i'll manage.. il try. if i dont, please help me out and tell me that this is what you need; that this is what you want and this is whats best for you. (too bad, being away from you completely, and not being your friend, seems to be the best for me at the moment.)

4. i feel like my old self again. the bitch is back for the nth time. kaya ko na mangaway ng tao ulit! :) kaso kahapon, in the midst of my galit/gigil mode, naisip ko na if you knew about the fight i was picking, youd make me see how petty it was and how foolish it was of me.. naalala ko tuloy na isa yan sa effects mo saken.. oops, going emo again. sorry... just another lapse... point is, im hating again! :) i can, once again, hate people for being stupid bitches. the bitch is back. **switch to maldita mode** so to the people i already hate, i say : watch your back bitches!!!