these days, im feeling messed up. my mood would just change lazy to crazy to apathetic to rebellious. this state of mind is not good for studying in law school. i'm in a funk, phucker! i am in no mood to get nega vibes from you! kasukaon na ko sa mga butang! $#^#$^#@%^$#5!!!! omg! you have no idea how much i want to just explode and disappear from the face of the earth! so get off my back! i dont know what to do. i feel so helpless. i feel trapped and the worst part is, i feel like its all my own doing. i just dont know how to dig myself out of this rabbit hole. i dont want to be where i am now.

gusto ko mudagan! kanang paspas kaayo! kanang layo kaayo! kanang wala na makaila sa ko! kanang mabiyaan na nako tanan! punyetah! lami mudagan! pareho kang forest gump! nidagan siya, natangtang iyang braces nga wlay buot! iyang braces na tama unta, pero mali! mali! mali kay didli siya kadagan! gusto nako mudagan sama nbi forest gump! nidagan siya hantud sa gibungot na ang buang! hangtud sa nagsawa siya, gikapoy siya. niundang lang siya tong trip na niya! gusto nako mudagan pareho niya! kay samtang gadagan siya, nawala na ang tibuok kalibutan. wala na. tanan buang na makakapoy sa tao samtang galingkod wala niya. ang kakapoy lang sa lawas sa pagdagan. walay kakapoy sa panghunahuna.

kapoyah ko diri kay dili ko kaginhawa. its a constant battle between choosing what makes me happy but is not always the "right" thing to do, and choosing that which is "right" but does not make me blissfully happy. i dunno. whatever yaya!